14.2.05
valentines.

ah, st. valentine...
you mess with my mind.
i am such a fuck up.
i will always be a fuck up.
i always have been a fuck up.
but i pray to god,
a god i dont even know,
that i can still do something.
ah, st. valentine...
you use my heart as a plaything.
i love someone so much.
so much it hurts.
and i fucked it up.
i can never keep my mouth shut.
i can never control my emotions.
and now im screwed.
ah, st. valentine...
you use me as a pawn.
you play your little game of love chess,
making me a casualty instantly,
a casualty of eros' bow,
but keeping me in play.
and now im afraid.
i am so afraid
that my love will take me off the board.
i am so afraid
that i fucked this up again.
i am so afraid
to even talk about it.
but i promise,
i love you.
i always will.
never any less than i ever did.
probably alot more.
just please forgive me.
even if i am already forgiven,
please dont blame yourself.
you already have enough.
ah, st. valentine...
you are cruel,
but masterful in your cruelty.
so cruel,
you are almost sweet.
ah, st. valentine...
you stole my heart,
and gave it to another.
but that was the best thing
youve ever done for me.
thank you, st. valentine,
for finding me love.
youre the best thing thats
ever happened
to me, even if you dont know it.
so please, st. valentine,
tell my love that its ok.
i still love them.
ill never stop.
just please,
stop blaming yourself.
forgive yourself,
or me, whichever it may be,
and try to forget.
it might not work,
but its the thought that counts.

-jo.

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aaron.
alltheworldtonothing.
bad poets society.
ben.
dani.
the end is near.
i dont own emotion. i rent.
jooutthewindow.
never ending story.
the nightjar.
lonely for the last time.
rosiebc6.
saccharinity.
second chances. from $26 995.
set my heart alight.
soph.
suicidiaries.

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# rules.
yes, sadly, there are rules. just cause im a control freak and i like our blog looking all nice. so. numero uno. no capitalization. unless it is absolutely necessary to the structure of your poem, no one wants to see it. numero dos. no apostrophes. i hate them, and theyre stupid. numero tres. no spelling errors. sorry for those of you who are slightly illiterate. but its hard to read poetry if it is fricking spelled wrong. numero quatro. sign your poems. ill take credit for them otherwise...*evil grin*. awesome. other than that, nothing else so far. you can use whatever font/size you want. any type of poem. etc. thank you.

# us.
name: jordan.
age: 15.
called: jo, dino, jooutthewindow, georgia.
contact: beckham2590@hotmail.com

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things: sharks, jellyfish, and seaweed.

music.

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age: 16.
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people: anyone who doesnt piss me off right away.

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things: not being able to breathe under the covers.

music.

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music.

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called: evoldous, psycho child.
contact: mbhultman@msn.com.

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people: danzaver, brixius, gabby, dan-yell, you know, all those people.

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people: i dont know, that one kid that wants to kill me.
things: those scion cars, they look like boxes.

music.

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# credits
picture by jo.
layout by roxy_belle.