4.1.06
there is no such thing [prose]

Silent and cold i walked along the rain pounded cement, There was little traffic, the roads were bad. the rain fell upon my skin, it stung harshly upon the back of my neck. The wind whistled through the streetlamps, blowing through my hair. I blew a lock of black out of my hair that smoothly fell back into place. I once thought i could make a difference, no matter how minor.

Now i know that there is no such thing.

As i trudged across the road,a car swerved to miss me. I felt the airwaves conform around me for a split second, then merge again on the other side. The driver shouted obscenity at me as he screeched past, but it was another sound in the world that passed me by, that ignored me, and rushed foward into their oblivion. I once felt that the world was in my hands

Now i know that there is no such thing.

Was there a plan? Or was it all impromptu. Is there a cruel laughing god? Or is it just a coincidence. I did not know then.

Now i know that there is no such thing.

I thought once that there was something further in life to look forward to, beyond simple pleasures and close-future. Now i understand everything. I once felt that everything conspired within the world to acheive your goals. I was wrong. I once felt that there was something to be, to aim for.

Now i know that there is no such thing.

The dropoff down the cliff i stared into was deep, and within me stirred a primal beast. It roared in fear, knowing its death was near, between my cold hard determination and the colder harder rocks at the end of a fall down. The fear spoke to me of a future, of a glorious future that i might have. Have had.

Now i know that there is no such thing.

I looked down again, swallowed, and jumped. On the way down, i saw everything flow between my eyes, a short life with long bits. I opened the door, looked inside, and fell.

-aaron

(this is a rewrite of a piece i did a long time ago, im still working on it, so expect an update on it eventually.)

bleeding inside since
14:02

1 comments:

Thanks for the feedback about the story

The prose label is a bit misleading though. I would like to say that prose might not be the best term. I feel its more poetry with paragraphs. The repetition(copying, as it may be) is intentional.

Im still wavering between expanding it and rewriting it. I want to write more, but i dont feel that this is my best, and it really doesnt live up to the original, which, sadly, i lost.

By  Aaron, at 2:09 PM  

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# credits
picture by jo.
layout by roxy_belle.